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30 September 2007 @ 11:33 am
LelouchxShirley FST [Never Forgotten]  


20 songs, two hearts bound together by fate, and 1,3 hours of cheerful beginnings, sad midterms and destiny.
 
 
NeverForgotten.
                                                             …I’m still here, trying to find my way back to you.
 
 


Yet if you should forget me for a while
And afterwards remember, do not grieve:
For if the darkness and corruption leave
A vestige of the thoughts that once I had,
Better by far you should forget and smile
Than that you should remember and be sad
                               Christina Georgina Rosetti.
 
 
When she met him, she didn’t fall for him on a clichéd love-at-first sigh; but that didn’t mean she wouldn’t end up falling for him all the same. Her feelings took time to develop; months of standing by his side, learning about him and his antics, getting to know him and the way his mind worked.
 
Shirley probably didn’t anticipate it, but there’s only so much time someone can spend by Lelouch’s side without falling irremediably for him. And she wasn’t the exception.
 
But how could she express her love for him without risking to ruin their friendship? The bond they had formed? There were too many things at risk, and it took her a long time [and a red-head] to finally get the enough courage to approach him.
 
Because, she knew, he was worth the effort.
 
 
Things I’ll Never Say.
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And I'm searching for the words inside my head
If I could say what I want to say            It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
I'd say I want to blow you--away                 What use is it to you what's on my mind?
Be with you every night                       If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
Am I squeezing you too tight?
         Avril Lavigne.
 
This song speaks about Shirley’s thoughts, as she wants to express her thoughts and feelings for Lelouch, but simply cannot gather the enough courage to do so. So she’s left with only her fantasies, and imagining multiple scenarios inside her head.
After all, Shirley is known to have a great imagination. 

True
              I'm weak, it's true                        
    Cause I'm afraid to know the answer            I've waited all my life to cross this line
            Do you want me too?                                 To the only thing that's true                                                                                
                          Cause my heart keeps falling faster                    So I’ll not hide, it’s time to try
       You don’t know. What you do                               Anything to be with you
Everytime you walk into the room, I’m afraid to move             All my life I've waited
                                                                                        This is true
Ryan Cabrera.
                           
          Shirley’s fear of rejection and of breaking the status quo, risking everything she has been able to achieve so far and most important of all, Lelouch’s friendship is wonderfully expressed in this song. And at the end, she realizes something really simple: It’s time to try, anything to be with him.
 
 
For You I will.
Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you
Teddy Geiger.
 
And so she gathers the enough courage, finally leaving her fear and doubt behind, and prepares herself to give one of the most important steps in her life. Confessing her true feelings to Lelouch. To Lulu.
 
…But at the end, things take a twist she didn’t truly expect.
 
Real loss only occurs when you lose something that you love more than yourself.
 
Harsh truths are the only things that reach Shirley as she stands there, paralyzed, holding the gun in her hands and staring right at Zero’s face. At Lelouch’s face. And she cannot help but to feel regret and sadness fill her petite body.
 
Who Knew.
Remember when we were such fools    
And so convinced and just too cool
     That last kiss, I'll cherish
Oh no, No no
                                  Until we meet again
I wish I could touch you again
        And time makes, It harder
I wish I could still call you friend
          I wish I could remember
I'd give anything                      Pink.    


Shirley doesn’t know anything anymore. And so she says goodbye to the happier times when she and Lelouch stood side by side, laughing and bickering like they were used to. And as she says goodbye, her mind being engulfed by confusion and feelings of betray, she wishes things could have been different.
 
But sometimes, wishes just don’t come true.


First Love.
                  The paused time is
              About to start moving
 There's many things that I don't want to forget about
              Tomorrow, at this time                         You will always be inside my heart
             I will probably be crying                       You will always have your own place
     I will probably be thinking about you         I hope that I have a place in your heart too
                              Utada Hikaru                 Now and forever you are still the one
 
And so Lelouch says goodbye, erases himself from her existence. And even though he knows it is impossible, he can’t help but wish, from an instant, that her heart will somehow keep a place for him in it.
 
Just like his will never be able to forget her.
 
Songs That Saved My Life.
Froze our memories again
Soon you'll forget but i just can't
I remember
I remember everything
All the tracks that shaped and changed me
And I can't forget
And I won't forget
Kill Hannah

And she’ll forget everything they had lived together, every moment they shared. But he won’t; not only because he doesn’t want to, but because he can’t. Even though he knows it’d probably save him a lot of pain, he’ll still remember her. Because the song she played in the concert of his life shaped and changed him in ways others couldn’t.
 
Looking back, I have this to regret: that too often when I loved, I did not say so.
        
         He was never open with his feelings, and sometimes, not even he himself could find out what he was truly feeling on the inside. And then, all that was left was regret for words he did not pronounce. Words he didn’t know he wanted to say.
 
Reverse This Curse
A withered past and a blurry future,
My hearts on an auction,                                        So I'll hang on, never let go.

It goes out to the highest bid.                           I dug this pain into my chest.
I live too fast, and I know I will lose her,   So, this goes, out to, the ones that fall in love,
                                                               And to, the girl, that filled my heart.

                                             Escape the Fate.
 
Lelouch has a withered past, and his future is unclear; he’s only able to make out the barest traces of what he wishes to accomplish. And he is aware of the fact that he’ll loose Shirley if he goes on in the dark path he’s chosen; this song reflects that knowledge, and how he tries to hang on the feelings he had, the pain he’s felt. This song is for the girl who filled his heart, even though she no longer remembers having done so.
 
4:am Forever.
Yesterday I wanted time to end
I wonder if my heart will ever mend
I just let you slip away
4 AM forever
Maybe I'll never see you smile again
Maybe you thought that it was all pretend;
All these words that I could never say
I just let them slip away
Goodbye, you never know
Hold a little tighter
Lost Prophets.
         Only when it’s already too late, has he realized what he had been feeling all along. And so all was left for him was regret, and the pain of knowing that what-could-have-been just couldn’t be at all anymore.
 
And so he says goodbye.

The Transition.
So here we are
Back to the start again

And as days go by, the memories remain
I'll wait for you
And as days go by, the memories remain
I won't let go
These days remain the same
Pictures fade away
Hawthorne Heights.
 
But he couldn’t really let go at all, and so he clung to the memories that remained inside him. Even though those memories were his alone now, and things were back again to the start, he would still hold them dear.
 
Because there isn’t a need to pictures when your heart holds everything you need to cherish.
 
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I Love You.
        
The words he wasn’t able to say, the words there wasn’t a case in saying anymore, could still be heard all too clearly if one listened intently enough to the pained sadness of his goodbye.
 
Falling in Love.
You are my one true love
You are the voice that is so sweet
In everything I do, you bring the best out of me
You are my wings to fly
You are the wind beneath them
I miss you every night, when I close my eyes
              Falling Up.

         Shirley always managed to bring out the best in Lelouch. That’s a quality I feel the pairing has always had; they’re able to bring out the best out of each other. And even though Shirley’s memories are gone, that influence Lelouch has one her can’t and won’t be erased, no matter how hard he may try.
 
         Just like her influence on him won’t fade with time, either.
 
Pens and Needles.
And all I had was the memory of what was
So let's pretend it never mattered to us
I hope this message finds you well
Never thought I'd live to tell
What's a dream and what is real,
The way I really feel
                                                                Hawthorne Heights.

        
This song, like the previous one, can work well with either POV. Still, I find it to fit Lelouch’s a little better. Because after all, that is all he has: the memory of what was.
        
I’m On Your Side.
I never meant to hurt you                                          End this now, we've gone too far
Sometimes these thoughts have a way making sense    Let's take back words that turned to scars
Secrets that we keep turn into accidents                   If I could find a way to turn back time
If you burn away the bonds with the fires of selfishness   Had to let you know I'm on your side
The positive the negative have a way of blending in                     Hawthorne Heights.

         The secrets that Lelouch kept from Shirley managed to create the mess they were thrown in. Just like Shirley not confronting Lelouch immediately after she realized he was Zero, had direct and painful consequences.
 
         But still, they never wanted to hurt each other.
 
         And if there was a way to turn back time, they’d let each other know just that.
 
The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren’t paying attention to before.
 
         But sadly there wasn’t a way to turn back time to correct one’s mistakes, and while Shirley couldn’t even remember just what mistake she would like to fix, Lelouch was left with the knowledge of the things he realized only when it was already too late.
 
“Loss makes you realize a lot of things, doesn’t it? Like how much you loved her smile, and how you’ll never laugh or fight together again”
 
Returning the Smile you have had since the Start.
In my memory I wrote you down in ink
 I never wanted to erase your story
 Even with the tragedy it brings
 
Something beautiful                     I don't want to say goodbye yet
 Something torn from my hands            This day will end with a life complete
                                     My closest friend here in front of me
                          Emery.
 
         He carved her memory deep inside his mind, and as she was torn from his hands by a cruel twist of fate; as he feels the pain of saying goodbye, missing her already, he apologizes for everything.
 
         Because he never wanted to hurt her—not her out of all people. And he didn’t want to erase their story. And even though he knew it was necessary, the best for her; he still regretted it. 

88.
                                                                            I know you make mistakes
                                                                               yeah, but
                                                                      I hope some day you have it all
         ...if you could understand
                                                           I'm losing control
                                                                                that I'm losing control

                                                                                            
Sum 41.
 
Lelouch will carry all her sins, the consequences of her mistakes. Because he only wants the best for her.
 
And that doesn’t change. Not even as he starts losing control over the Geass and those around him.
 
 
Fix You.
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...

Coldplay.
 
 
       And so Lelouch will try to fix her, erasing from her memory all those things that pained and broke her. But what he didn’t realize, is that he may be able to erase her memories from her mind, but the geass can’t erase the feelings inside the heart.
 
       And at the end, it’ll be Shirley the one to try to fix him.
 
I never knew until that moment how much it could hurt to lose something you never really had.
The Wonder Years
           
For it was then he realized what he had wanted all along.
 
Shine On.
I know you'll be better off without me when I'm gone
You know you're beautiful
You're beautiful                                           You’re gonna be just fine,
Shine on                                                You’re gonna be alright love
You were made to shine on
and you know I love you
even if we can or can't be friends I'll be with you till the very end
                                                                  Ryan Cabrera.
 
Shirley is an amazing girl. Talented, beautiful; a good friend with a great heart. She’s made to shine and succeed; Lelouch know this, and so when he turns and starts walking forward—as he stares at her from the sidelines, he knows she’ll be fine on her own. And he’ll support her all the way through, even if he can’t stand at her side as she shines.
 
Better than Me.
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies that I made you believe
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remember
What it feels like beside you
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
Hinder.

         His hands are tainted red with blood and sins; his selfish desires and dreams push him forward and add burden to his shoulders. And Shirley deserves much better than that; she deserved so much better than him. That’s what he thinks.
 
         He wasn’t the same boy she met long ago, neither was he the same person she fell in love with. He now was the one who killed her father and the guilty one behind the massacre of the Japanese people who dared to wish for something better.
 
         And Shirley deserved so much better…
 
         But even though he knows that, he can’t help but to be selfish enough as to cherish her memory inside his heart and mind.

White Flag.
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
And when we meet, which I'm sure we will
All that was there, Will be there still
I'll let it pass, and hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on...
            Dido.
 
         And neither of them will say a word, even when their eyes met. Shirley’s mind is plagued with the contents of the letter she can’t seem to forget, and her heart is too confused with the void that always seemed to fill whenever he was near. Lelouch isn’t aware of any of those things, and believes there isn’t a place in her heart for him anymore; and it’s better like this. She would be safer the farther away she was from him.
 
         And so neither of them knows just what the other is feeling… and that there can be new beginnings that are only awaiting for a word to start.
 
When I found you, I felt as if my heart found its destination.
 
         This was the feeling they shared, without knowing it, without realizing. Shirley slowly placed her heart with his, and Lelouch couldn’t help but to do the same.
 
         Even though neither of them realized just when it happened.
 
Harenochi Natsu No Ame.
Things might fall apart if I speak
I still don't have enough courage
The sudden showers of summer rain
Will hide your tearful face
Time changes incessantly
But I won't forget
Tomorrow will be clear again
I'll meet you with a smile
Someday,
even if it hurts
Until it reaches you
Tomorrow, I can meet you here again
Precious friend
Forever, until these feelings
Can approach you
Orikasa Fumiko.
 
 
Shirley’s character song. Because I believe, there’s no one better to express her feelings than herself.
 
Close together or far apart, you’re forever in my heart.
 
 
Masquerade.
Without ever giving a thought about exposing
My own weakness and strengths,
I hid my tears,
From people who could show their true faces.
I can’t lose you, the one I kept searching for.
                                            You’re My Destiny
                                               Open your heart
                   I want to confess my unyielding thoughts
                                       You’re My Destiny
                                     The bond that I feel
                             Is the destiny of our meeting

                     Say you’ll share with me one love
You’re My Destiny
I want to try and believe...
You’re My Destiny
In tomorrow’s dream...
                                  Hitomi.
 
         And finally, the song that played during episode 14, as Lelouch placed the burden of Shirley’s sins above his shoulders, and opened up to her about things she could no longer understand under that night-sky full of stars.
         This is Lelouch and Shirley’s song. And with beautiful Lyrics from Lelouch’s point of view, as well as a breathtakingly sad melody and gorgeous vocals, this FST ends.
         And it ends with this song not only because it is from Lelouch’s POV, or because it is their song. But because this song speaks about destiny, and tomorrows and new chances. It speaks about them finding each other once again, inevitably, because Shirley is Lelouch’s destiny.
         And I, like Lelouch in this song, hold onto this belief. 





        Click here to download all the songs.


 
Please don't hesitate to tell me your opinion <3
 
 
I'm : cheerfulcheerful
 
 
 
Kuragehimehaine_asakura on September 30th, 2007 07:15 pm (UTC)
I really love what you did n.n I love this sad but beautiful pairing and I wish they would have something in the future >.< I like Shirley the most and I find Llelouch to be the best choice for her...they'll be a beutiful couple n.n

The songs are perfect, thank you for did this n.n Good luck n.n
Kanae: LuluShirley ♥kanae_mizuhito on September 30th, 2007 10:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you! ♥ I too, think Lelouch is the best choice for Shirley. Just like I'm positive Shirley would be the best choice for Lulu <3

And let's cross our fingers for S2! <3
Kuragehimehaine_asakura on October 2nd, 2007 02:42 am (UTC)
Another thing....I LOVE YOUR LAYOUT!!! It's sooooo cute and well done >///<......*run*
Kanae: Naomi <3kanae_mizuhito on October 3rd, 2007 06:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you! ♥
Emilytenshi789 on September 30th, 2007 09:55 pm (UTC)
Awesome, you've chosen some really good songs :)

Do you think I could add your FST to this section of my site?
Kanae: LuluShirley ♥kanae_mizuhito on September 30th, 2007 09:59 pm (UTC)
Thank you! ♥ And of course you can! I'd love it ^^ Just please link back here so people can comment or something xDDD
AthenAltena: Lelouchathenaltena on October 3rd, 2007 12:12 am (UTC)
Nice mix, and you definitely underlined the tragic aspect of their relationship. Props!
Kanae: LuluShirley ♥kanae_mizuhito on October 3rd, 2007 06:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you ♥ ^-^
fair_vatican on October 3rd, 2007 03:26 am (UTC)
love the mix!
Kanae: LuluShirley ♥kanae_mizuhito on October 3rd, 2007 06:24 pm (UTC)
Thank you, I'm glad you do! =D
Miriallia: Shirleyangel_katsumi on October 4th, 2007 05:49 pm (UTC)
I listened to them all... I'm still crying because of White Flag... ;__; I think that you chose wonderful and perfect songs! ;_; The cover is very cute, I love it!! <3
Kanae: LuluShirley ♥kanae_mizuhito on October 5th, 2007 01:46 am (UTC)
Thank youuu! ♥ I'm happy you thought they were fitting! <3
ryoku_chan: Colin By Me Credit if you take pleaseryoku_chan on October 6th, 2007 09:18 pm (UTC)
It isn't my favorite pairing, but I can't deny how sad it was. Plus I'm a huge Code Geass fan girl, so anything I can find about it I'll take. Though I have to say that this is beautifully done! I really like how you set it up, and the cover is absolutely beautiful! May I ask where you got the picture for it? Can't wait to listen to it! Thanks for a good looking FST!
Kanaekanae_mizuhito on October 6th, 2007 09:21 pm (UTC)
Thank you ^^ The image is from a magazine article, but I can't remember just from which did I get it, sorry ^^U
(Anonymous) on October 18th, 2007 01:54 pm (UTC)
please tell me where can i found lulushirley pic!!! ^^
really need it..!! please!please!please!pretty please!!!
juz give me d website link..okay?? thx a bunch! u'll help me..!! a lot..

btw,nice song u choose..how about 'sorry, blame it on me' by akon???
abcakeno_yuki on December 8th, 2007 02:55 pm (UTC)
That pic, you used for the backcover is superb*_*
Where is it from?
[».Lju]*: [CG] At Gunpointcrimson_hime on February 4th, 2008 04:36 pm (UTC)
Looks very adorable, but the file is not aviable anymore. T__T Can you re-upload it, please ?
colorxmexedencolorxmexeden on October 5th, 2008 11:59 am (UTC)
These are very good songs for them. Thank you for writing a list of some, I want to make an AMV I'm just unsure of what song.. but I'll look into each of those songs a little more.

:)
Natsukonatusko on November 30th, 2008 07:42 am (UTC)
^_^ Very good songs. I think it fits those two very well. *nod nod*

Though the file isn't available anymore, and I was wondering if you can reload it again. D:
carlemb on January 10th, 2009 09:53 am (UTC)
I also make this request too~
(Anonymous) on June 29th, 2009 05:24 am (UTC)
lelouch ad shirley
i think lelouch is deeply in love with shirley not with cc i think they look together with a unique costume
(Anonymous) on November 21st, 2009 10:08 pm (UTC)
Hi, refering to the song masquerade - i found on imeem the song but with Lelouch and Shirley talking over it - its a direct cut from episode 13 or 14 (but only sound) where Lelouch erases Shirley's memory - its a great secne to watch but its even better when you listen to it - i really wish i could find it again!
(Anonymous) on March 14th, 2010 01:38 pm (UTC)
I wished this pack could be reuploaded as the whole "article" is just amazing :O I wished to dll it and re-read it over and over again :rolleyes: ;)

Possible? No?D: :p
sendorala on July 13th, 2010 12:32 pm (UTC)
I love this so much. The songs fit so well. I just wish you would reupload the download link...
Lelouch vi Britannialulumasquerade on August 3rd, 2010 07:45 pm (UTC)
Very good again. All of these songs fit beautifully.
(Anonymous) on November 20th, 2010 05:39 am (UTC)
hi
i love what you did.. i really love lulu and shirley! but shirley died, that scene really affect me much! is it true taht lulu is inlove with shirley?? cool!